We use ourselves over ability by doing things, which basically don´t interest us. And at the same time, we have still not found out, what we seriously are interested in. We haven't discovered what our real interest is, and we feel a fundamental disappointment, bitterness, or perhaps rather guilt: the feeling of not having accomplished our possibilities, the feeling of lack of life-unfolding and unlived life, and the annoyances over this.
It is necessary that you as an Idler ask yourself the question about what you are interested in. Not what you ought to be interested in, but what really absorbs you.
More and more people become interested in finding out. And it is really important that you, with yourself, find out, in which direction your interest goes.