The thinking, which is a result of the past, can´t understand the present

The absence, and the following conflicts, worries and problems, arises because we use the present as a passage to the future, instrumentally. 

Read for instance about the problem of time in Marcel Proust´s In Search of Lost Time, or in Thomas Mann´s Magic Mountain.

The Ego is a result of the past; without past there is no self-producing thought-activity. 

Without the historical background, without this limitation, there is no such thinking. 

But the thinking, which is a result of the past, can, as Kierkegaard said, not understand the present, since it only uses the present as a passage to the future.

When you have become what you desire, there immediately comes a new desire

The philosophical becoming is the factor that makes the daily life a torment, a competition, an extensive conflict: the philosophical striving after becoming something more, which we find in the priest, who wants to be bishop, the disciple, who wants to be master, etc.

In this becoming there is a positive or negative striving; and that is the fight for changing what you are to something else; the fight in order to control and form truth, happiness and reality; the fight that makes one or the other thing into a foundation of life.

You say: ”This is what I am, and that I would like to become!” But this becoming generates a series of conflicts. When you then have become what you desire, there immediately comes a new desire, and that way it goes on indefinitely.

That is due to, that you still are in a state of becoming, and don´t know how to go into being; the problem of Marcel in Proust´s In search of Lost Time.