The Core in Disorder is Inner Contradiction

“A Study for The Mystic Wood”, by John William Waterhouse

What is the actual core in disorder? Our existence is disorderly, split, we are absent, place ourselves outside, and are classifying life in different rooms, using specific perspectives; we are not a complete nature.

When you understand what disorder is, how it arises, then there is order

Our lives consist of disorder, which means contradictions: you say something, do something else, and what you think is neither what you say or what you do.

Our existence is divided in fragments, and in this division we try to find an order of some kind, a self-image or a world-image.

We think that this order is caused by discipline and control.

But a mind which is controlled, which is disciplined in the meaning adapted to a pattern - whether this pattern is defined by yourself or by society, or by a certain culture - such a mind is not a free mind, it is a distorted mind.

Therefore you must, as a Life Artist, investigate this question about disorder.

And when you understand what disorder is, how it arises, then there is order – which is something living.

It is the desire after more which gets you to accept or believe something, and it leads to illusion

In accordance with the Buddhists it is immensely easy to lead yourself behind the light, to convince yourself about anything. The feeling of, that you shall become something is the beginning of the deception, and this idealistic attitude leads to multifold forms of hypocrisy.

What does the illusion consist in?

Yes, one of the factors is the eternal comparison between what you are and what you believe you ought to be, or could be – (you are evaluating the good and the evil and the distance between them) – the thought that is trying to improve, the memory about a lust, which is trying to achieve more of this lust, etc.

It is this desire after more, this dissatisfaction, which gets you to accept, or believe, something, and it must inevitably lead to any kind of deception and illusion.

It is the anxiety and the desire, the despair and the hope, that are projecting the goal, the conclusion you want to experience. Therefore, this experience has no presence and therefore no reality.

We pretend something, and there is in this way an unbelievable hypocrisy

What is the actual core in disorder?

Our existence is disorderly, split, we are absent, place ourselves outside, and are classifying life in different rooms, using specific perspectives; we are not a complete nature.

The core in disorder is the inner contradiction, and where there is such a contradiction in ourselves, there must be the will to power, and therefore disorder.

You can easy see, how disorderly your own life is, how the multifold desires, purposes, conclusions, intensions, are in contradiction and tear up each other: your actions are violent, and you want to live peacefully; you are self-assertive, desirous, you compete with others, and you say that you are compassionated; you are self-centred, egoistic, historical limited, and talk about an all-embracing brotherhood.

We pretend something, and there is in this way an unbelievable hypocrisy.