The Core in Disorder is Inner Contradiction

“A Study for The Mystic Wood”, by John William Waterhouse

What is the actual core in disorder? Our existence is disorderly, split, we are absent, place ourselves outside, and are classifying life in different rooms, using specific perspectives; we are not a complete nature.

When you understand what disorder is, how it arises, then there is order

Our lives consist of disorder, which means contradictions: you say something, do something else, and what you think is neither what you say or what you do.

Our existence is divided in fragments, and in this division we try to find an order of some kind, a self-image or a world-image.

We think that this order is caused by discipline and control.

But a mind which is controlled, which is disciplined in the meaning adapted to a pattern - whether this pattern is defined by yourself or by society, or by a certain culture - such a mind is not a free mind, it is a distorted mind.

Therefore you must, as a Life Artist, investigate this question about disorder.

And when you understand what disorder is, how it arises, then there is order – which is something living.

The split in ourselves either leads to self-construction, or to self-destruction: insanity

The contradictions in ourselves grow illusions and pain, and in order to get away from them we take our refuge to a line of self-deceits, which only increase the conflicts and misery.

And when the inner contradiction, because of crises, or violent challenges, becomes unbearable, we conscious or unconscious seek to escape through insanity, or through death; or we dedicate our life to an idea, to a group, to a country, to some activity, which completely can swallow up ourselves; or we subject ourselves to the organized religion with its dogmas and rituals.

In that way, this split in ourselves either leads to self-construction, or to self-destruction: insanity.

You must quite simply see that desire is a contradiction

There is always a contradiction in the desire.

You desire contradictionary things - which doesn´t mean, that you must destroy the desire, oppress, tame or sublimate it - you must quite simply see that the desire itself is a contradiction.

It is not the things you desire, but the nature of the desire itself, which is a contradiction.

And you must understand the nature of the desire before you can understand the conflict.

With ourselves we are in a condition of contradiction, and this condition is created by the desire - this, that we strive after lust, and try to avoid pain.

It is fairly obvious, that there is conflict in the world because there is ruling discord in ourselves

It is fairly obvious, that there is conflict in the world because there is ruling discord in ourselves; a discord which shows itself outwards in society, in the Ego´s, and the other´s, activity.

Our images of life are filled with contradictions; that is to say: the Ego with its competitive lust and anxiety, and the other, which can be the ideal about living without conflict.

Herein there are a lot of mutual contradictory wishes, goals and initiatives.

If we are aware of this tension, we can in ourselves see how mutual contradictory desires, opposite assumptions, ideas and goals, move in separately directions.

Constantly Man seeks to build bridge between what you are and what you ought to be

The person, who only has some images of life, but no philosophical life-practice, seeks to build bridge between the Ego and something else; the Ego, with all its ambitions, initiatives and contradictions, and the other, which either is the ideal, the formula, the concept, or the society.

Constantly Man seeks to build bridge between what you are and what you ought to be.

And precisely herein there is contradiction and conflict, and therefore all energy, vitality, and urge to live, are wasted.

We pretend something, and there is in this way an unbelievable hypocrisy

What is the actual core in disorder?

Our existence is disorderly, split, we are absent, place ourselves outside, and are classifying life in different rooms, using specific perspectives; we are not a complete nature.

The core in disorder is the inner contradiction, and where there is such a contradiction in ourselves, there must be the will to power, and therefore disorder.

You can easy see, how disorderly your own life is, how the multifold desires, purposes, conclusions, intensions, are in contradiction and tear up each other: your actions are violent, and you want to live peacefully; you are self-assertive, desirous, you compete with others, and you say that you are compassionated; you are self-centred, egoistic, historical limited, and talk about an all-embracing brotherhood.

We pretend something, and there is in this way an unbelievable hypocrisy.