Our lives consist of disorder, which means contradictions: you say something, do something else, and what you think is neither what you say or what you do.
Our existence is divided in fragments, and in this division we try to find an order of some kind, a self-image or a world-image.
We think that this order is caused by discipline and control.
But a mind which is controlled, which is disciplined in the meaning adapted to a pattern - whether this pattern is defined by yourself or by society, or by a certain culture - such a mind is not a free mind, it is a distorted mind.
Therefore you must, as a Life Artist, investigate this question about disorder.
And when you understand what disorder is, how it arises, then there is order – which is something living.