In Part One of this article, My
Life as a Vagabond, I described how I began to use alcohol in order to calm
down my kundalini symptoms. In Aalborg, in Denmark, and on vagabonding trips around the world, I actually lived more
or less like a "Dharma Bum" for 10 years. The alcohol abuse ended with a liver disease,
hospitalization, and a near-death experience.
It was in Rold
Forest I began to receive help from different instances. Quite physically I was
found in the forest by an old woman. I was sitting at the trunk of an old tree,
singing an unintelligible song. By my side stood a bottle of vodka. The old woman called an ambulance and I was brought to a hospital in Aalborg, 25 km north of
the forest. My long hair and beard were filled with leaves and twigs. I not
only looked like a madman. I was one. I´m not denying this. So you are
welcome to think what you want about these autobiographical posts, which I post
under the series, My Life as a Vagabond.
And yet the kundalini
process was going on in me, apparently unaffected.
The help seemed to
arrive because I´m was in a process where I, due to Hara practice and simple
awareness, had allowed my lower chakras to be processed. I was attracted to
nature. And the more I was working with Hara and the lower chakras, the more
the Earth Chakra was opening me for Mother Earth elements and therefore shamanism.
In her book, Working
with Kundalini – An Experiential Guide to the Process of Awakening, the
spiritual teacher, Mary Shutan, writes that it has been her direct experience
as well as from hearing hundreds of client experiences that there are three
distinct phases of Kundalini. Most literature is focused on the first phase
either because it is an intellectualization of the Kundalini process without
direct experience (there is a lot of this out there) or because the author or experiencer
has not reached past the first phase themselves.
The first phase of Kundalini
is talked about a fair amount. This is in general the processing of the first
three chakras. Shutan says that this is what 90 percent of people who are experiencing
Kundalini are working through (confusing enough, the first phase often cause
the upper chakras to open before the lower chakras). I realized that my
hospitalization probably was the culmination of the first phase. The second
phase of Kundalini is not talked about much. This is because most people have a
tremendous amount of work to do in their first three chakras, most people
truthfully do not get beyond the first phase of Kundalini awakening (or even go
beyond Kundalini stirring which is a temporary experience of Kundalini), and
because talking about “higher” spiritual experiences can be difficult.
In the second phase about
Kundalini we begin to move beyond the physical and emotional experiences that
were locked in our first three chakras. We obviously still have work to do with
energies in the first phase… we always will. Some of the patterns that are in
the first phase of Kundalini awakening simply cannot be released or cleared
before we explore things from a deeper layer of Self (such as a karmic or
societal level). In this phase we begin to move beyond the self and direct
experience. Sort of…
The next phase
takes us through the societal, world, community, karmic, and other patterns
such as sex, race, and sexuality. Personally, I began
to sense a connection between shamanism and art.
In her
article, Wild
Men & Women of the Forest, the author and
folklorist, Terri Windling, writes about Merlin (pictured in the drawing
by Alan Lee above). She writes:
Merlin is a figure intimately
connected with forests in Arthurian lore. After the disastrous Battle of Arderydd, Merlin goes mad and spends years
as a wild man in the woods, living a solitary, animal existance, before he
emerges into his full power as a magician and seer. His prophesies are contained
in Welsh poems said to be written by Myrddin himself (from texts dated to the
9th century and onward); many of them can be found in the Llyfr Du
Caerfryddin and The Black Book of Carmarthen. In the "Afallennau"
and "Oineau" poems (from The Black Book, translated by Meirion
Pennar), Myrddin portrays his life among apple trees in the forest of Celydonn:
"Ten years and two score have I been moving along through twenty bouts of
madness with wild ones in the wild; after not so dusty things and entertaining
minstrels, only lack does now keep me company. . . ." He
despairs that he, who once lay in women's arms, now lies alone on the cold,
hard ground, with only a wild piglet for company (a creature much revered by the
Celts).
This flight into wilderness is
a common theme in shamanic initiation from cultures around the globe. Through deprivation, an elemental existence, and even
madness, the shaman embarks on an inward journey; when he or she returns to
world it is as a changed and not-quite-human being, aligned with the powers of
nature, able to converse with animals and to see into the hearts of men.
Suibhne (or Sweeny) in Irish lore, for example, is a warrior cursed in battle
and forced to flee to the woods in the shape of a bird. Like Merlin, Suibhne
goes stark raving mad during his long exile — but when he emerges from the
trial, he has mastery over creatures of the forest. (For a gorgeous
modern rendition of this tale, I recommend the book Sweeny's Flight, an
edition containing Seamus Heaney's long poem based on
the myth, along with photographs of the Irish countryside by Rachel Giese.)
I found recognition and
comfort in all this, but especially I found recognition in the Scandinavian Seiðr
shamanism. In her article, Songs of Enchantment - The
Legacy of the Seiðr Tradition, the Danish shamanic teacher, Annette Høst,
uncovers the early northern European shamanic tradition of Seiðr and magic
chanting and looks at what it has to offer us for empowerment and healing. She
writes:
Like many other students of
shamanism and spiritual traditions, I first thought that you only find
shamanism in faraway exotic cultures, among the Siberian peoples, among Native
Americans, or closer to us North Europeans, among the Sami in northernmost Scandinavia.
Then I heard about the tradition of seiðr, (pronounced somewhat like
say-th, where ð is pronounced like th in there) an old Nordic form of shamanism,
or shamanic magic. I was instantly fascinated: Imagine, a shamanic tradition in
my own “indigenous culture” although a long time ago! I decided immediately to
learn everything I could about it.
Høst writes thatour only
written sources are bits and pieces in Norse myths and sagas from late Viking age,
but the tradition probably has much earlier origins, with roots in Germanic fertility
cult and early shamanism. A practitioner of Seiðr would be called seiðr
-woman, seiðr -man, or volva - meaning staff carrier. Traditionally,
the Seiðr workers used a combination of staff, song and a magic high seat as
means to open the doors to the otherworld.
Høst says:
Let us try to picture how a
seiðr ritual typically unfolds in the Viking era, for example as told in our
most famous seiðr account, that of Thorbjörg Little-Volva in the saga of Eric
the Red:
Thorbjörg - an experienced,
professional wise woman and seiðr worker - is sitting on the seiðr seat holding
her staff. The people who have summoned her to solve the problems of illness and
bad hunting luck in their settlement, surround her singing the seiðr song.
Thorbjörg’s spirit allies gather around her, called by the hauntingly beautiful
chanting, and the song transports her into trance, into the spirit world. There
she meets with spirits, divine beings or forces, and puts forward her request for
help on behalf of the suffering community. Her task completed, she signals the
singers to end the song. She then chants the outcome of her magic, predicting a
speedy return of health and fertility in the settlement.
In the silent “echo” following
the song, the volva is still in trance and gives oracular answers to the questions
put to her by individuals from the farms about health, the crops and the future.
Thorbjörgs seiðr was a big
community ritual, but seiðr can also be done with just a few people, or alone
in nature. Other saga accounts describe seiðr used for bringing fish back into
a fishless fjord, making a weapon invincible or telling the future. In short,
seiðr can be used to transform, to heal, and to seek vision.
The account of Thorbjörg’s Seiðr
outlines a ritual recipe for a community Seiðr, which Annette Høst has successfully
used for many years if a group of people work for common purpose, like finding
a guiding vision for a new work project or re-empowering a neighbourhood. Apart
from the results of the work, just being part of such a community Seiðr can be
very empowering for the unity of the group as well as the individuals in the
circle. One participant, Høst recalls, called it “a deeply meaningful human activity”.
However a big group Seiðr is
not the most convenient magic method for most people. Luckily, a simpler, related
practise exists, much more accessible for you and me in our everyday. It is the
solitary Seiðr, a way of nature-magic, where your Seiðr seat might be a rock or
a root of a tree in a forest or other natural setting. With your purpose or
intent clear in your heart, you simply sit with your staff and sing yourself
into contact with the wind, the night, with the animals and spirits out there and
let their songs blend with yours and guide you and energise you. It is a way of
literally rooting your spiritual practice in your own land. People often say it
is like coming home.
Looking at our experiences of
the last twenty years with different forms of Seiðr work, Høst finds this
tradition has a lot of relevance for us today; it is far more than an exotic, ancient
speciality. The most impressive elements are the magic Song, the Staff and the
Power. Let us take a look at each of them.
The old Seiðr songs are portrayed
with expressions like: “Sweet was the chanting” or “No one present had ever
heard a fairer song”, at other times it is “strong” or “harsh”. Both then and now
the Seiðr song is known to often be ecstatic.
No old Seiðr songs have been
handed down to us, so Høst has had to turn to the related traditions of magic
and ritual song of Northern Europe, especially the old Nordic galdr, the
Finnish runosong, the Sami joik, to learn the old secret skills
of magic singing.
In our culture today the tradition
of magic chants is still kept barely alive - by lullabies. A lullaby’s aim is
to restore peace to the child it is sung over and to open the doors to the
Realm of Sleep. This is another meaning of spellbinding and enchantment, with
great healing power when used consciously and ethically.
In my
article, My Life as a Vagabond, I wrote about Windling´s article, On Artistic Inspiration, where
she writes:
“In the
mythic tradition, both artists and shamans walk perilously close to the realm
of madness; indeed, in some cases, their gifts specifically come from
journeying into madness, or Faerie, or the Realm of the Gods and then back
again.”
This is
also a central theme in her book, The Wood Wife. It begins with a
Goethe quote:
Who wants
to understand the poem
Must go
to the land of poetry.
In popular
thought, if not always in fact, shamanism is associated with altered states of
consciousness and borderline madness, with shapechanging and otherworldly
journeys, with creativity and genius. Windling’s novel The Wood
Wife weaves these elements into the story of a woman who meets spirits
of place when she travels to the Arizona desert. The artist figures in The
Wood Wife are, like shamans, intermediaries between the spirits/nature
and the human world. The
artists speak to and for the spirits.
The second phase
of the kundalini process began to show in my dreams. Lately they have attained
a rather strange character. They have attained the color of icons.
Something otherworldly is mixing in. I´m still experiencing life on the
streets, and my engagement with other bums. But there is an extraordinary
feeling of sacredness. Strange people are mixing in, people from traveling
caravans, street entertainers, bohemians, gypsies, vagabonds, and some more strange
creatures, half animal and half human creatures, so-called shapeshifters.
I was therefore
quite fascinated when I discovered the art work of Rima Staines. Rima Staines (as
portrayed on her website) is an artist using paint, wood, word, music,
animation, clock-making, puppetry and story to attempt to build a gate through
the hedge that grows along the boundary between this world and that. Her gate-building has been a lifelong pursuit, and she
hopes to have perhaps propped aside even one spiked loop of bramble (leaving a
chink just big enough for a mud-kneeling, trusting eye to glimpse the beauty
there beyond), before she goes through herself.
Rima was born in London in
1979 to a family of artists and has always been stubborn about living the
things that make her heart sing. She lives in South Devon with Tom Hirons (a writer, storyteller,
acupuncturist, poet & wilderness rites of passage guide), and their two
young sons. Together they steer Hedgespoken - a vehicle for the
imagination - a travelling offgrid home and theatre built on a 1966
Bedford truck.
Rima's artwork has appeared in
and on books, magazines, and record covers on both sides of the Atlantic. For many years she maintained a passionately-followed
blog at intothehermitage.blogspot.com and
has sold paintings and prints of her work (as well as the clocks she makes) on
her travels the length and breadth of Britain.
Her work hangs on walls in six
of the seven continents.
The Old
Woman of the Woods series: Baba Yaga
Sova Slova
A former accordionista with
the London Gypsy Orchestra, she can now be found playing by Devon’s street corners
and campfires, and giving life to puppets on the edges of woods. She has books in the making, and also produces
animations and puppets and obscure games in lost dialects.
Rima’s inspirations include
the world and language of folktale; the faces of the people who pass her on the
street; the folk music and art of Old Europe and beyond; peasant and nomadic
living; magics of every feather; wilderness and plant-lore; the margins of
thought, experience, community and spirituality; and the beauty there is to be
found in otherness.
Lately, I´m also beginning
to experience inner tantric phenomena. Some of the female street
entertainers appear like dakinis. Tsultrim Allione describes the dakinis
as “mystical female beings who may appear in dreams, visions, or human form.”
They are primarily energy-beings, “the wisdom-energy of the five colors, which
are the subtle luminous forms of the five elements.” In his book The Faerie
Way, Hugh Mynne writes that there is a truly astounding point-to-point correspondence
between British faerie beliefs and Tibetan teachings concerning dakinis
(besides its New Age scent, Mynne´s book is quite good). In Scandinavia we have
the Disir. These are the female spirits (goddesses) I´m interacting with in Rold Forest. The Disir belongs to a group of gods called The Vanir. In ancient Celtic
religion they are called The Sidhe. They are the Divine
Ancestors. They are closely associated with poetry and music.
The Sidhe could be
compared with Tolkien´s concept of elves and angels, and the relationship with
them could be used in the same way as suggested throughout this book. See Philosophical
Counseling with Tolkien, especially Chapter 3: Philosophical Angeology.
Again Annette Høst
is talking about something I clearly recognize. In an article, Keep it Close to Nature, Karen Kelly
interviews Høst on Seiðr:
KK: Does This Mean That In Order
to Practise Seiðr We Need to Follow the Religion of the Vikings?
AH: I am glad that you bring
this up because I think that this question lingers maybe unconsciously in many
people’s minds. I’ll put it
this way: A lot of the research connects the tradition of seiðr with the Viking
Age, with the Aesir deities and especially with Odin. This is without
considering the fact that seiðr is much older than the Vikings, much older than
the Aesir gods. I would rather go behind the filter and structure of any
religion in my seiðr working to the source of the spirits and powers of
Nature. That is the same for us as for the old ones - it is timeless.
I don’t see seiðr as being necessarily part of any religion. I
really want to emphasise connecting it to the power and spirit of Nature rather
than any religion.
If we should relate seiðr
to a religion it would be much more relevant to link it to the older fertility
religion and the Vanir. They
are the earlier Nordic gods and spirits concerned with fertility, sexuality,
magic, peace and abundance. We know the main deities of the Vanir: Frey,
Freyja and Njord. But what is interesting is that they were inseparable
from groups of spirits of the land and Nature. Frey is connected with the
Elves (alfar), Freyja with the Disir and sometimes the whole group of Vanir is
called Elves. So they are much closer to the Earth and shamanism than any
later Nordic gods. I think most people don’t really know about the Vanir, so they
have not yet been the object of romantic interest, but they are much more in harmony
with some important aspects of seiðr, such as the ecstasy and ergi.
However now that we know how a
seiðr works I prefer to let go of all that historical fringe and concentrate on
the timeless aspect of seiðr. We are not recreating the past.
Dakinis, like the Sidhe (Scandinavia: Vanir/Disir), are particular associated with twilight; they frequently
appear at twilight. They speak a mysterious non-rational “twilight language”
(Sanscrit: sandhyabhasa) which can only be understood through the operation of
another mode of knowing. Like the Sidhe, they are “between-creatures,” appearing
and disappearing in the mysterious radiance of another world. This has all something
to do with dream yoga. The Tibetan Dream Yoga practice (which origins in shamanism) became a great help for me, while interacting with the Disir in dreams.
Høst writes that many parents
know how new lullabies have sprung out of their hearts, born in the moment from
love and intent to help. However there are other time tested ways of finding
new spells or healing chants. In the beginning of Finland’s great magic song cycle
“Kalevala” we are told where the new magic songs (runes) live, where the source
of power is:
Many runes the cold has told
me,
Many lays the rain has brought
me,
Other songs the winds have sung
me;
Many birds from many forests,
Oft have sung me lays n
concord
Waves of sea, and ocean
billows,
Music from the many waters,
Music from the whole creation,
Oft have been my guide and
master.
Kuu is a Moon goddess in Finnish mythology. Art by Ethel Larcombe
Today we can use magic chanting
to sing open the doors to the spirit realms, to sing pains or illness away, to
sing stronger the bonds between ourselves and the tree in our backyard, to sing
thanks to the dawn or the car running smoothly, to sing blessings for a newborn
child.
The healing potential in singing
is immediate and great, both for the singer and the one being sung over. Basically
it only requires that you allow yourself to be moved by your purpose…and open
your mouth. The Netsilik Inuit Orpingalik put it like this: “Songs are thoughts,
sung out with the breath when people are moved by great forces and ordinary speech
no longer suffices”.
Høst writes:
In the new seiðr and other shamanic
rituals I listen to the singing pouring from modern people when they are moved
and opened by the song. Usually they have no “song training” but in their voices
I hear echoes of the old song traditions, I hear the most heavenly harmony, the
irreverent cackling of old hags, the coarse calls of ravens blending into a
full sweeping wave of Song.
On
the below video you can see Faroese Eivør Pálsdóttir performs her own song
"Tròdlabùndin" (from the album "Trøllabundin" 2005) at an
outdoor concert with Vamp on the mountain farm Stigen in Aurland, 10.08.13.
Stigen Farm is a UNESCO World Heritage Site from 2005, and it is located by the
Aurlandsfjord. Note the throat
singingin the last part of the song. When I first heard this, I immediate came to think of Seidr.
In Tolkien´s Middle-earth, the elves of
Rivendell are famous for their singing. In the Christian story of creation, the
New Testament tells us that in the beginning, there was the Word. In Tolkien´s
spin, we are told that in the beginning, there was the Song. Before writing The Hobbit, Tolkien laid out the origins
of Middle-earth and how the happy elves found a home there. Though The Silmarillion was first published in
1977, four years after Tolkien´s death, it contains the history behind
Middle-earth that Tolkien had been working on for much of his adult life. As it
begins, the creator of the world, Ilúvatar, made the Ainur, or Holy Ones, and
gave them the power of song. The voices of the Ainur, like innumerable choirs
and musical instruments,
Began
to fashion the theme of Ilúvatar to a great music; and a sound arose of endless
interchanging melodies woven in harmony that passed beyond hearing into the
depths and into the heights, and the places of the dwelling of Ilúvatar were
filled to overflowing, and the music and the echo of the music went into the
Void, and it was not void.
Both elves and men (Quendi and
Atani) were created as important players of the world´s symphony. But though
the race of men will do great things, Ilúvatar proclaims, it is the elves who
“shall be the fairests of all earthly creatures, and they shall have and
conceive and bring forth more beauty than all my Children; and they shall have
the greater bliss in this world.”
The highest of the “guardian
angels” in The Lord of the Rings is
Elbereth. At the most critical juncture in the Quest, Sam is inspired to invoke
her by name, “speaking in tongues” (language is always the clearest indicator
of importance in Tolkien):
A Elbereth Gilthoniel
O menel palan-diriel,
Le nallon sí di-nguruthos!
A tiro nin, Fanuilos (LOTR, p.
712)
This translates as: “O,
Elbereth Starkindler from heaven gazing-afar, to thee I cry now in the shadow
of death. O look towards me, Everwhite.”
When we come to the importance
of the staff in Seiðr, we almost see Gandalf for our inner eye:
Gandalf
painting by Kinko White
The occasions when the Seiðr
staff sometimes behaves or manifest like a snake have naturally given rise to
associations with both the Caduceus, Hermes’ wand entwined by two snakes, and
the staff of Asclepius entwined by one snake. What does that tell us? Being
careful not to take this comparison too far, it simply confirms to me that
power of the Staff and spirit of Snake always have turned up as guides and allies
in magic and healing work, and apparently they like to work together. It is of
course kundalini.
In my article, Philosophy as a Rite of Rebirth (a Shamanic Ritual), I have told about my kundalini awakening, and its similarity with ancient incubation rituals. I will shortly retell it here: My
kundalini was awakened when I stayed in my childhood home in Aalborg, Denmark.
One night I had a non-ordinary dream. I was standing at the top of a mountain
in a row of sinners. Demons were surrounding the row, and were forcing the
sinners to jump out from the mountain, down into Hell. When I was forced to
jump, I was falling for a while down into the flaming hell. Normally, when you
have a falling dream, you wake up. I didn´t woke up, but hit the ground without
dying. I looked down and saw that my legs were broken, and that the bones stuck
out. And all around me I saw mountains of skulls and bones. Besides me there
was a rock where some runes were carved. They said: You are Norna Gest. An old
woman dressed in black was approaching. I thought it was a witch, but it was
Karen Blixen. She bend over me, and took both her hands down around
my throat, and drilled a finger hard and long into the back of my neck, for
finally to stroke me over both shoulders.
When I
was straightening up, she broked the silence with the unexpected request:
”Now say a verse.”
The
first, which felt into my thoughts, was Rainer Maria Rilke´s poem Autumn:
The leaves fall, fall as from far,
Like
distant gardens withered in the heavens;
They
fall with slow and lingering descent.
And in
the nights the heavy Earth, too, falls
From
out the stars into the Solitude.
Thus
all doth fall.
This
hand of mine must fall
And lo!
the other one:—it is the law.
But
there is One who holds this falling
Infinitely
softly in His hands.
Then
she said:
”You
shall go now.”
I began
to scream. But the only sound coming up through me was a wordless auummm.
Enormous powers of energy were following this aum. I felt like I was sitting on
a jet motor. The powers moved up through my body in violent spinning movements
and spasms.
Then I
woke up. But I had taken something with me out of the dream, and that was the
energy. A new energy was now working in me, an energy which was not mine, or
psychological constructed by me. It was Kundalini. It couldn´t be stopped by
will, though I later learned how to steer it.
In my
booklet on the chakras, The Nine Gates of Middle-earth, I write about how storytelling has formed my life. I have always reflected myself in
storytelling. I early became fascinated with literature focusing on the journey
motif, and which happened to stand on my father´s bookshelf, for example the
Danish Nobel prize winner in literature, Johannes V. Jensen, and his
novel The Long Journey.
What is
special about Johannes V. Jensen is that he grew up and lived on the peninsula
Himmerland, where also Rold Forest is situated, and he wrote about the area and
its people in the collection of short stories called Himmerlandshistorier (Stories
of Himmerland). These people are my ancestors. Jensen wrote in the same style
as Tolkien and Blixen, a style which could be called mythic fiction; a
tradition which follows the ancient tradition of storytelling.
There
is especially one story from The Long Journey, which has imprinted
itself in my mind. It is called Mother and Child. It is about a
hunter who in ancient times lived in the great Northern forests with his woman
and their child. One day while hunting, the hunter finds the track of a deer,
and forgets himself in the hunt. It is as if the deer is teasing him to follow.
During the hunt he loses his track of time. Finally, late in the night, at the
top of a cliff, the deer stops and looks back at the hunter, who now raises his
bow to shoot. But then the deer transforms into fire, and runs up to the sky.
The hunter realizes that what he had hunted, was a star constellation (read more in the booklet).
It is
also in The Long Journey, you can find the story of Norna Gest. I will end this
article with a quote from the novel:
I have myself tried to find the song of healing. In my free Ebook, Philosophical Counseling with Tolkien, I have tried to gather my complete philosophy. I consider this book to be a song of healing. Recently I have started writing a series of new Sûnyatâ Sutras, where I try to practice a kind of "philosophy poetry". I consider these sutras to be another, ultra short, form of song healing. In the blog archive you can find them under the categories: The Artist as Shaman, and New Sûnyatâ Sutras.
The Long Journey, by
Johannes V. Jensen (Free Ebook. In 1944, Jensen won the Nobel prize in
literature for this novel. Here you can find Jensen´s story of Norna Gest. If
you want to read a translation of the original Norna Gest´s saga - click here).
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