The Core in Disorder is Inner Contradiction

“A Study for The Mystic Wood”, by John William Waterhouse

What is the actual core in disorder? Our existence is disorderly, split, we are absent, place ourselves outside, and are classifying life in different rooms, using specific perspectives; we are not a complete nature.

When you have become what you desire, there immediately comes a new desire

The philosophical becoming is the factor that makes the daily life a torment, a competition, an extensive conflict: the philosophical striving after becoming something more, which we find in the priest, who wants to be bishop, the disciple, who wants to be master, etc.

In this becoming there is a positive or negative striving; and that is the fight for changing what you are to something else; the fight in order to control and form truth, happiness and reality; the fight that makes one or the other thing into a foundation of life.

You say: ”This is what I am, and that I would like to become!” But this becoming generates a series of conflicts. When you then have become what you desire, there immediately comes a new desire, and that way it goes on indefinitely.

That is due to, that you still are in a state of becoming, and don´t know how to go into being; the problem of Marcel in Proust´s In search of Lost Time.

In philosophy as an art of life it is in the inner calculator the only revolution can take place

The question for the Idler is whether you can neutralize the inner calculator – not the inner center for a certain desire, a certain lust or longing, but the whole structure of the desire, of longings and of hopes, which always bring along the anxiety of becoming disappointed. The more disappointed you are, the more you strengthen the Ego. The Ego is the one who says: ”It is no use with me!”; or: ”Wonderful me!” Both the denial, and the confirmation of the Ego, continues the Ego-process. 

It´s The Roads of Longing. But it is also The Labyrinth with The Dragons of Dissapointment.

As long as there is hope and longing it is always on the background of anxiety, and the anxiety strengthens the inner calculator.

In philosophy as an art of life it is in the inner calculator the only revolution can take place, not on the surface, which only diverts the awareness from the actual.

It is not interesting for the Philosophical Globetrotter to know the peripheral conflicts in your nature

Philosophical seen it is therefore not interesting for the Philosophical Globetrotter to know who you are in a certain conflict, to know the peripheral conflicts in your nature; their content.

What you want to know is why there altogether is conflict.

When you ask yourself this question, you see a fundamental problem, which nothing has to do with the peripheral conflicts and their solutions. It is this central problem, which is important. 

And what you see is, that the actual nature of the desire, if not fully understood, inevitably must lead to conflict.

To understand consciousness, means philosophical, that you speak about the perspective of Man as such

To understand consciousness, desires and thinking, means psychological, that you speak about the contents of the observed, and the contents of the thoughts in the individual person, and that you take a psychological perspective on the observed and the thought.

To understand consciousness, desires and thinking, means philosophical, that you speak about the perspective and self-production of Man as such.

You direct the awareness towards the observer and the thinker, rather than towards the observed and the thought, towards the form of consciousness and thinking, rather than towards its content.

And the subconscious has here to do with absence and unreality; that is: the separation of the observer and the observed.

You must quite simply see that desire is a contradiction

There is always a contradiction in the desire.

You desire contradictionary things - which doesn´t mean, that you must destroy the desire, oppress, tame or sublimate it - you must quite simply see that the desire itself is a contradiction.

It is not the things you desire, but the nature of the desire itself, which is a contradiction.

And you must understand the nature of the desire before you can understand the conflict.

With ourselves we are in a condition of contradiction, and this condition is created by the desire - this, that we strive after lust, and try to avoid pain.

Will to Power is not psychological will, but perspectivism and nihilism

The Will to Power is a concept which comes from the German philosopher Friedrich Nietzsche.

It is entirely an expression of the philosophical desire in the thinking, not an expression of reality or life itself.

It is an expression of the thinking´s desire after controlling truth, happiness and reality. It is therefore I call it a philosophical desire.

It it not enough to designate it as a psychological desire, but a perspectivism which ends in nihilism.

Self-realization is not the desire after self-realization

Why shall we necessarily have what we want?

Is it not because we think we have the right for it?

In political philosophy they have made much out of claiming that the right of ownership is a "natural" right, whereby you can justify waste and exploitation.

There are pieces of Rold Forest which are "private" where other people not are allowed entrance.

Other "rich" people can buy a star or a planet if rich enough (I wonder -  if there are people living there - they would agree with that).

I just wait to see that the air I breath, that a bird´s song in the morning, and my mommy´s love, now have become the right of ownership by some "rich" guy, which I therefore not are allowed entrance to anymore.

A bit in the same way they have claimed, that conclict is something "natural", whereby you can justify violence and war.

And the ideology of needs is claiming the same: the desire after satisfying your needs, not only your basic needs, but also esteem-needs and self-actualizing needs, is something entirely "natural" and a human right.

The problem is that there is a difference between actually being a self-realized person and the desire after being such a person.

To reduce the whole thing to needs is a distortion of what self-realization is all about.

The will is violence

The will is violence.

The will is a result of the wish, the desire after becoming something; and the desire is of nature aggressive, dominating.

The will to achieve something, and the will to fight - is the cause of the conflict in our inner, to the dualism, that causes the struggle in our inner.

Both the denial, and the confirmation of the Ego, continues the Ego-process

The question for the Life Artist is whether you can neutralize this inner calculator, which is the Ego – not the inner center for a certain desire, a certain lust or longing - but the whole structure of the desire, of longings and of hopes, which always bring along the anxiety of becoming disappointed.

The more disappointed you are, the more you strengthen the Ego.

The Ego is the one who says: ”It is no use with me!”; or: ”Wonderful me!”

Both the denial, and the confirmation of the Ego, continues the Ego-process.

Conflict arises because we cling to pleasant images and fight to avoid painful images

Always the image originates from that, which has happened in the past.

If it is a pleasant image, we cling to it.

If it is a painful image, we want to get rid of it.

In this way the desire arises, the will to power: one image we want to keep, the other we want to reject.

All this brings along conflict.

But if you are all this present in passive listening, you can observe it clearly without keeping it or pushing it away, without commenting, prioritising or sorting, only observing and feeling, and then you yourself can find out what it is all about.

Then you don't live as shown by some psychotherapist, priest or politician.

As a Life Artist you must push desire aside; the desire after identification with a person or an idea or a thing

As a Life Artist you must push desire aside; the desire after identifying yourself with a person or an idea or a thing.

This doesn´t lead to harmony, unity or love.

The question then becomes: can you break out of this frame?

How this shall take place in philosophy as an art of life, can´t be answered with a method, the answer rather consists in a voyage of discovery, which perhaps can open the door; just like Faust, who unwraps himself from Mefistoteles´ word-web, by making a journey through it, without knowing where it brings him.

There is no being if there is a struggle for becoming something

A radical transformation only takes place in the present, in that to be in the Now.

But there is no being if there is a struggle for becoming something.

The struggle for becoming something, the will to power, is the absent, and herein there is resistance and denial, desire and resignation.

It is fairly obvious, that there is conflict in the world because there is ruling discord in ourselves

It is fairly obvious, that there is conflict in the world because there is ruling discord in ourselves; a discord which shows itself outwards in society, in the Ego´s, and the other´s, activity.

Our images of life are filled with contradictions; that is to say: the Ego with its competitive lust and anxiety, and the other, which can be the ideal about living without conflict.

Herein there are a lot of mutual contradictory wishes, goals and initiatives.

If we are aware of this tension, we can in ourselves see how mutual contradictory desires, opposite assumptions, ideas and goals, move in separately directions.

When things become a requirement for your psychological and existential wellbeing, they get an all-important meaning

When the things only are of physical necessity for you, you limit them reasonably; but when they become a requirement for your psychological and existential wellbeing, they get an all-important meaning.

Being aware of that is to understand the satisfaction of your senses and your desire for lust.

If you want to understand the true, you must break away from such bonds.

In order to be able to break away from this desire for lust, you must begin with observing the needs you are familiar with, and in this is lying the right basis for understanding.

When we strain ourselves to become something, then we ourselves have projected this something

The conscious effort, the will to understand and create, to accumulate, the will to become something, is a continuation of the past, perhaps modified, but still a continuation.

When we strain ourselves to become something, then we ourselves have projected this something.

When we conscious strain in order to understand and create, it is the noise of our own accumulations we hear, the noise of all the life we have sucked out of the present and into thinking and time.

And it is this noise that precisely hinders the understanding and the creation.

What creates a conflict in Man is the desire after becoming something

The thoughts and the feelings are limited by their own cause: the desire after becoming something, which is time-binding.

What creates a conflict in Man is the desire after becoming something: to have luck and progress here in the world and inwards: to achieve a result.

But as long as our thinking is concerned with time, with what we will achieve with our position, there will inevitably be this conflict.

The mind is after all a product of time. The thought builds on yesterday, on the past, and as long as the thought works within the area of time and is concerned with the future, with becoming something else, with winning and with achieving, there will be opposites, and then we can´t see the real, the Now, the existential conditions.

Only by realizing, by understanding, by - without wanting to choose - being aware about what you are, you have a possibility for releasing yourself for the dissolvent factor, which a conflict is.

In desire there is both defence and surrender, and therefore conflict

Now and then you change - according to the strength of your desire - the image, the god, the object, of your sense impressions.

You are for instance fed up with one kind of lust, and therefore you seek a new influence, a new idea, a new symbol.

You reject the old sense impression and adopt a new, with new words, new meanings, new experiences.

You defend yourself against the old, and surrender to the new, which you consider as being superior, nobler and more satisfying.

In that way there is in the desire both defence and surrender, which is implying temptation; and naturally, when you evade from a certain symbol of desire, there is always an anxiety present, the anxiety of becoming disappointed when surrendering to the new symbol. 

Therefore desire contains conflict.

The desire after experience produces the Ego

The desire after experience produces the Ego, the observer, the one who experiences, the one who accumulates and remembers.

The will to power leads to, that the observer distances himself from the observed, and that the thinker places himself outside the thought.

And this is unreality, falsehood.

You are absent from the surroundings, and absent from your thoughts, in the sense that you are on a distance from them, they have so to speak moved outside you, where you relate theorizing, timorous, or agonized to them.

Emptiness and loss have to do with, that you compare challenges with earlier, and desire or fear something else

In order to be able to get an image to disappear, you must first find out how it arises; and you see, that if you don't react sufficient to any challenge, it will leave an image.

This is because that emptiness and loss slide in between the challenge and the reaction.

The emptiness and the loss have to do with, that you are absent in past and future, and compare the challenge with earlier, and hope, desire or fear something else.

Therewith you have made the challenge into a problem. And it is the problem, which creates the image.