It is necessary that you as a Life Artist ask yourself the question about what you are interested in

 

“The problem is acceptance, which is something we´re taught not to do. We´re taught to change uncomfortable situations, to change things, alleviate unpleasant feelings. But if you accept the reality you have been given – that you are not in a productive creative period – you free yourself to begin filling up again” – Anne Lamott

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We use ourselves over ability by doing things, which basically don´t interest us. And at the same time we have still not found out, what we seriously are interested in. We haven't discovered what our real interest is, and we feel a fundamental disappointment, bitterness, or perhaps rather guilt: the feeling of not having accomplished our possibilities, the feeling of lack of life-unfolding and unlived life, and the annoyances over this.

It is necessary that you as a Life Artist ask yourself the question about what you are interested in. Not what you ought to be interested in, but what really absorbs you. More and more people become interested in finding out. And it is really important that you, with yourself, find out, in which direction your interest goes.

So far you perhaps have tried different things, you have devoted your energy and intelligence to these, but they haven't given you any deep satisfaction, like in Kazuo Ishiguro´s novel The Remains of The Day, where the ageing butler Stevens realizes, that his loyalty to Lord Darlington has implied, that he himself never really has lived fully. Or you have perhaps burned yourself up by doing things, which didn´t had your profound interest, or your real interest is still lying in torpor, and is waiting to be awakened. So which of the two possibilities is then the true?

Many people today have a need of discovering what the truth is concerning this question. If you have burned yourself up, the problem requires a special attitude; but if your fire still is sleeping, then it is important that it becomes awakened. And as a Life Artist it is important that you yourself discover the truth, rather than letting another tell you what is true. The truth about what you are, is its own action. If you are burnt-out then it is a question of healing, about recovering, lying fallow in creative sense. This creative state of fallow follows when you have cultivated and reseeded, it is non-action, which leads to complete action later.

If your real interest not yet has become awakened, and if the prompting to find out is present, then you will find out, not by constantly seeking after an answer, but to be inquiring, clear and warm in your prompting. Then you will see, that when you are awake, there is a sharpened attention in which you receive any hint from the hidden interest, and that dreams also play a part. In other words: the prompting gets the mechanism of discovery to function.